Where Do They Come From, Who Are They

You see them, and already they’ve vanished. Figures, outlines really, glimpsed in the narrow channel of the street between the bypass and the main road. A “hello,” a “good evening,” barely whispered as they slip past. She, the woman, often comes out to smoke on the doorstep. Most times she stubs out her cigarette when she sees you heading towards the Schneider car park. That’s what you think. She sees you coming, fifty metres off, calculates, mutters oh no, not again, crushes the cigarette underfoot and disappears behind the plastic door. Soft click of PVC. Everyone around here has white PVC doors. Though it’s changing, bit by bit. More and more metal security doors now. Things creeping in. “Because insecurity’s rising,” says the man with the loud voice and the Alsatian, the one who’s friendly with the far-right MP — sorry, “National Rally,” though he still calls it the old name. He’s on long-term sick leave. Used to work at the chemical plant down the road. Now he lives on the ground floor, walks his dog, tells anyone who’ll listen that the area’s not what it used to be.

When he sees you, he pounces. He knows everything : that you’re a painter, that you live here, that you’ve had exhibitions on this date or that. It’s uncanny. He doesn’t keep it to himself either — names fly when he talks. He knows everyone. First name terms. That’s the tactic, you think : get in good with everyone. Be seen, be loud, be useful. But my God, he shouts. You looked at his ear once, checking for a hearing aid. With the old models, they can’t hear themselves talk. They shout instead.

The other day it was about the speed bump. “Needs doing,” he said, “been years.” He’s spoken to the MP. You call him “R-Hate” in your head — you shouldn’t. Almost every other neighbour votes for them. Maybe more than that. Maybe the whole street. Maybe not the one your wife calls “our neighbour” — they cross paths a lot. He does the flea markets too. Your wife had given him the name of her knee surgeon. His wife was due for surgery as well, was terrified. As it turned out, she stayed in hospital for nearly two months. “Didn’t go well,” he said. It wasn’t even a knee, in the end — it was her hip. Your wife felt guilty. But they had tea together and it settled. “It’s like over there,” she told you after. “They’ve made it like over there.” Over there meaning Algeria. One of their sons died last year, in a car crash. He was in his thirties. It happened there. You didn’t go. Your wife did. "It’s what you do, as neighbours." They held something here, a gathering, but the body was there. That’s where he was buried.

You don’t go to things like that. Or very rarely. Your wife does. She’s more social. Still, you did offer your condolences, a few days later, crossing the car park. He was rummaging in his car. She stood by the gate. “Hello. My condolences,” you said. They thanked you. That was it. You had to get to work.

Up near the white gate, a woman had said, “It’s close. L. can walk soon, almost by himself.” Not yet though — he’s only six, and cars speed down your street. Ten years you’ve waited for that damn speed bump. One week it’s the mother, the next it’s the father — they’re separated. L. has a little sister, E. They come on Saturdays. E. wants to stay and draw with L., but she’s too small. “She won’t last an hour, madam, believe me — I’ve tried.” They come, they go. You don’t keep in touch. For you, they’re clients. For them, you’re an activity. Something L. is signed up for.

Also — “the husband’s white, the wife is Black, did you notice ?” your wife said. “Really ? You noticed that ?” you replied, noncommittal. Then she switched to the Turkish grocery. It was meant to be demolished — that’s what the council had planned. But they appealed, and won. Since mid-June, apparently. They’ve promised to do the renovations themselves. You sighed. You’d imagined a vacant lot in front of the house. But things take time. Mid-July now, and nothing’s changed. The shutters are still down. Barriers still in place. No one knows when it’ll start.

Your wife asked the neighbours next door — the engineer, the cancer survivor. They live just next to you. The wife never goes out. Long white hair, sings beautifully. Sometimes you hear her through the kitchen wall. The engineer must be past eighty. You’ve spoken to him once, in ten years. Not that you didn’t try — you invite them every year to the party for your students. They never come. One morning, he told you about the 3D printer he ordered from China. In pieces. Spent days, nights, on internet forums figuring out how to assemble it. You nodded, showing you understood. Then he left — the pharmacy was closing soon.

You don’t know who they are, or where they come from. They’re silhouettes, really. Actors in your own little stage play. Likely they’re nothing like the people you imagine them to be. Almost certainly they’re not who you say they are. But you need to call them something, need to say they’re silhouettes. That’s what you tell your wife. They’re entities you invent, day by day, so you don’t have to admit that you’re perhaps the only one left on this street, in this village, in this world — after it’s all disappeared.

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